And what a good feeling it is. I woke up this morning with plans. I haven’t done that for a very long time. For a long time I was just merely existing. But existing takes money and money means a job. Jobs weren’t all that easy to find but finally I got one at Wal-Mart. I was far from happy but at least it was a steady paycheck. The change began in a small way with my decision to come to seminary but only in a small way because seminary meant finding more money for tuition, books and transportation. God had laid it on my heart to come here though and so I did. At first I was almost swamped and I went from existing to treading water which is not a step in the right direction. It was pretty harrowing as a matter of fact. Then through a set of circumstances I made the decision to create an imitation stained glass window for my parents 50th wedding anniversary. That in itself was a huge stress. As I worked on it though; I realized that I had done virtually nothing creative since hurricane Katrina struck three years ago. Designing the pattern was difficult and overwhelming. The window did not go as I planned it. But finally it was finished. I think that is when it happened. That is when I finally began to be able to plan and feel that I could create again. I wasn’t able to give it to my parents on their anniversary because it wasn’t finished so I presented it to them for Christmas instead. That is it in the photo at the top of this entry. A lot of things are still very far from right in my life right now but I just can’t help but believe that it is going to be a very good year.